Road Signs

​Silence is perfection sometimes, isn’t it?
 
It is early on a Sunday morning. With delicious hot coffee in hand, I watch the lights twinkle on my tree. They accompany a hush that is cozy and comforting.
 
It is ironic that I grumbled and cussed all the while I was dragging out this Christmas crap. And now I am thanking my lucky stars that I am still alive and healthy enough to enjoy it all.
 
This entire week I have pondered about how it is not only holidays that toy with our ability to see positivity in our lives. The hype surrounding this blessed celebration though almost always focuses on how we must share with family if we are to be fulfilled.
 
I cannot speak for you, but that adds to my fear and loneliness. While I have a wealth of friends and a small circle of loving family, I wake up every morning and go to bed every night alone. Oh, and did I mention I work alone all day too?  
 
Yes, you can say that is a choice. And I will beg to differ.
 
And just like that WHAM. Did you feel the hard turn to the left? The question of destiny is flashing like a Vegas road sign. Now, this is a way to spend a quiet Sunday morning!
 
Okay. Whew. Just clear your throat and spill it, lady.
 
I have always believed that our lives are predestined. Oh, I am certain we have choices (i.e., the roads less traveled), but I also believe that both or all of those paths are predestined as well.
 
My soul is a metaphysical energy that has traveled beyond the realms of my understanding. It has walked hand in hand with a higher power guiding my choices to envelop exactly what it is I need to learn on this journey around the sun.

I am not here at the hands of fate. I exist for a reason.
 
No, I am not crazy. We all embrace theories that give us comfort. And believing that I need to learn how to live alone – and accept it – strengthens my being.
 
And no, don’t go there. I know my higher power is always with me, so “alone” is a contradiction of sorts.
 
But suddenly, I am at peace with it all once again. No, that doesn’t make it easier. But it does cleanse the mind and open channels of intellectual possibility.
 
Today’s truth is a holiday brunch with a best friend. Surely goodness and mercy will surround us with friendship, fellowship, and copious amounts of food and libation.
 
That’s worth a ‘Ho Ho Ho’ and all that jazz, don’t you think? Ah, but that is fodder for yet another rant.

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